New year, New goals
As 2017 comes to a close and we begin a new year full of new resolutions and new standards many people are holding themselves to, I would like to take a look back on this past year and then think of my 2018 “goals”.
I think this year was full of growth, self evaluation, and self discovery. I’ve become independent, like I’ve always found myself wanting to be. I grew up, moved out, and found a job I actually enjoy. I don’t live pay check to pay check and I would say I’m financially stable for being a college student paying rent every month. And I’m pretty proud of myself if I do say so myself. Not to say that any of that came easy. Just five months ago I was freaking out about not having a place to live during the school year and just four months ago I was freaking out over the price of living here. Not to say I have fully grown up. I still whine about having to work every weekend and I cry when people leave after hanging out with me here but it’s not so bad. I quite enjoy living along because I’ve come across all of these wonderful things I can do. Like shower with the door open and play Friends on my tv all day.
This past year was hard. It was hard moving away, it was hard graduating and saying goodbye to everyone I grew up with, and it was hard to accept the fact that I’m the legal age to be considered a grown up. How crazy. With all of the changes that this year brought, I’ve found that in order to be happy and feel excited about life, I have to do it myself. I’m in charge of my feelings towards all of these changes and I can’t let the little things stress me out and ruin my days.
SO, with that being said, I’ve come up with a few “goals” for this new year. “Resolutions” seems too strict and unforgiving but if I set some “goals” for myself then I think I’m still allowing myself a little room to make mistakes and then if I don’t meet these goals right away I’m not feeling like I failed.
1. Do what I love
Man, am I crazy for being insecure about my social life? With going away to school I was feeling like I was missing out on a pivotal time in my life where partying and meeting new people was a milestone and I HAD to do it in order to “accomplish” life. I was scared I would grow up and feel like I missed out on something and feel like I grew up too fast. But holy cow! Have I realized something.. I don’t want to do that. I don’t want to stay out and party and be surrounded by people that I don’t even have any clue who they are. I think we all have hobbies and desires and different ways of living and I just find that I have no desire to live that way. Even if it is just a “college phase”. I look up to so many people who can live their life and not feel pressured to do anything they don’t want to do. I aspire to be like that. I want to be able to do my own thing and not feel like I’m missing out and I’m the odd one for not doing what everyone else is doing. I truly enjoy my bed and my pajamas too much to want to give that up for parties.
My mindset for this new year is to just stay focused. Work, do good in school, and maybe exercise once in a while. If I can just focus on what matters and what will help me out in the next few years then I’ll be golden. Which leads me to my next point..
2. Find people I relate to
Ever since leaving high school I’ve felt so out of place with my high school friends. Mostly because of this whole thing where I don’t have a very big social life filled with new friends and stories to bring home when we all meet up on breaks. Honestly, it’s awkward listening to everyone’s stories as I sit there with none of my own. What I’ve found is that I’ve grown apart from some of these friends. And that’s okay. High school isn’t known for making the bestest of friends. That’s what college is for. And I’ve got to learn to let go and not feel so left out by them because I’m not doing what they’re doing. It’s pretty much all relating to my first goal. This year I’m going to find people I relate to and can hang out with without feeling pressured or alone. And if I can’t find people like that then I’m not going to surround myself with people I’m not like. It’s just a waste of time and energy to try and be like them.
3. Focus on myself
What’s crazy is that I’m so insecure about getting reassurance from people. And what’s ridiculous is that when doing simple things like posting a picture, I feel like I need the get comments and likes from others in order for me to feel good about myself. And when looking at other peoples pictures they’ve got all of these people praising their looks and it really bummed me out to compare myself to these other people. I’ve got to STOP doing that! It is so heartbreaking to look at a picture of myself, really enjoy it, post it, and then rethink about how good of a picture it actually is JUST from looking at the comments, or lack there of.
I’m really going to stop, I promise. I promise myself that I’m going to stop comparing myself to others and I’m just going to be happy living my little life as I please. Whether that’s eating fries in bed on a Saturday night or MAYBE going to the gym alone the next morning (another goal of mine. Really gotta hit the gym more than a couple times a year).
4. Focus on my Faith
The last few months I have felt a strong desire to become closer focus God. I truly think it’s because of all of my alone time. He’s given me this time to talk to him, read about him, and listen to what he’s got planned for me. 2018 is going to be a year more focused and dedicated to listening to God. To learning more about him and to find people that I can talk with about him. Again, finding people I can really relate to.
A common theme I see in these four goals is the word “focus”. So is think it’s good to say that this New year is going to be a year of focus and dedication to myself, my health, my company I keep, and my faith. It’s going to be a good year because they these past couple of years have been rough. But if I just keep focusing (there’s that word again) on what’s matters then I think when can make it another year ;)
Wishing you a happy new year :)
Xo-
Leah
I think this year was full of growth, self evaluation, and self discovery. I’ve become independent, like I’ve always found myself wanting to be. I grew up, moved out, and found a job I actually enjoy. I don’t live pay check to pay check and I would say I’m financially stable for being a college student paying rent every month. And I’m pretty proud of myself if I do say so myself. Not to say that any of that came easy. Just five months ago I was freaking out about not having a place to live during the school year and just four months ago I was freaking out over the price of living here. Not to say I have fully grown up. I still whine about having to work every weekend and I cry when people leave after hanging out with me here but it’s not so bad. I quite enjoy living along because I’ve come across all of these wonderful things I can do. Like shower with the door open and play Friends on my tv all day.
This past year was hard. It was hard moving away, it was hard graduating and saying goodbye to everyone I grew up with, and it was hard to accept the fact that I’m the legal age to be considered a grown up. How crazy. With all of the changes that this year brought, I’ve found that in order to be happy and feel excited about life, I have to do it myself. I’m in charge of my feelings towards all of these changes and I can’t let the little things stress me out and ruin my days.
SO, with that being said, I’ve come up with a few “goals” for this new year. “Resolutions” seems too strict and unforgiving but if I set some “goals” for myself then I think I’m still allowing myself a little room to make mistakes and then if I don’t meet these goals right away I’m not feeling like I failed.
1. Do what I love
Man, am I crazy for being insecure about my social life? With going away to school I was feeling like I was missing out on a pivotal time in my life where partying and meeting new people was a milestone and I HAD to do it in order to “accomplish” life. I was scared I would grow up and feel like I missed out on something and feel like I grew up too fast. But holy cow! Have I realized something.. I don’t want to do that. I don’t want to stay out and party and be surrounded by people that I don’t even have any clue who they are. I think we all have hobbies and desires and different ways of living and I just find that I have no desire to live that way. Even if it is just a “college phase”. I look up to so many people who can live their life and not feel pressured to do anything they don’t want to do. I aspire to be like that. I want to be able to do my own thing and not feel like I’m missing out and I’m the odd one for not doing what everyone else is doing. I truly enjoy my bed and my pajamas too much to want to give that up for parties.My mindset for this new year is to just stay focused. Work, do good in school, and maybe exercise once in a while. If I can just focus on what matters and what will help me out in the next few years then I’ll be golden. Which leads me to my next point..
2. Find people I relate to
Ever since leaving high school I’ve felt so out of place with my high school friends. Mostly because of this whole thing where I don’t have a very big social life filled with new friends and stories to bring home when we all meet up on breaks. Honestly, it’s awkward listening to everyone’s stories as I sit there with none of my own. What I’ve found is that I’ve grown apart from some of these friends. And that’s okay. High school isn’t known for making the bestest of friends. That’s what college is for. And I’ve got to learn to let go and not feel so left out by them because I’m not doing what they’re doing. It’s pretty much all relating to my first goal. This year I’m going to find people I relate to and can hang out with without feeling pressured or alone. And if I can’t find people like that then I’m not going to surround myself with people I’m not like. It’s just a waste of time and energy to try and be like them.
“Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom” Marcel Proust
3. Focus on myself
What’s crazy is that I’m so insecure about getting reassurance from people. And what’s ridiculous is that when doing simple things like posting a picture, I feel like I need the get comments and likes from others in order for me to feel good about myself. And when looking at other peoples pictures they’ve got all of these people praising their looks and it really bummed me out to compare myself to these other people. I’ve got to STOP doing that! It is so heartbreaking to look at a picture of myself, really enjoy it, post it, and then rethink about how good of a picture it actually is JUST from looking at the comments, or lack there of.
I’m really going to stop, I promise. I promise myself that I’m going to stop comparing myself to others and I’m just going to be happy living my little life as I please. Whether that’s eating fries in bed on a Saturday night or MAYBE going to the gym alone the next morning (another goal of mine. Really gotta hit the gym more than a couple times a year).
4. Focus on my Faith
The last few months I have felt a strong desire to become closer focus God. I truly think it’s because of all of my alone time. He’s given me this time to talk to him, read about him, and listen to what he’s got planned for me. 2018 is going to be a year more focused and dedicated to listening to God. To learning more about him and to find people that I can talk with about him. Again, finding people I can really relate to.
A common theme I see in these four goals is the word “focus”. So is think it’s good to say that this New year is going to be a year of focus and dedication to myself, my health, my company I keep, and my faith. It’s going to be a good year because they these past couple of years have been rough. But if I just keep focusing (there’s that word again) on what’s matters then I think when can make it another year ;)
Wishing you a happy new year :)
Xo-
Leah
Comments
Post a Comment